Friday, May 23, 2008

love or lust

james just text me now hey pretty girl hes always sayn that kinda stf im gonna try to tell him i wanna be friends first and then maybe more wat do u think i should do? please comment

NOT SURE IF ITS LOVE OR LUST

Love and lust are two very different things.
I started liking this guy his name was james , after a while i thought i fell in love.
But i never really liked the guy my sister kept saying how hot the guy was and my friend allison was saying he was very cute.
So every time i saw him i always focused on his looks.
and i started talking to him sometimes.
But i was very shy around him and was always avoiding him.
When i think about it now i think why?
I started falling for this guy and he liked me too.
I talked about him constantly people were getting anoyed.
After a while i got bored there was nothing to say about him.
Then i was talking to allison she really wants us to like each other i told her i didnt think i liked him anymore but she didnt believe me cause i was always saying i didnt like him when i did ,she told me yes you do i told her i think i might like his friend luke but hes just got a bad attitude and hes such a perve but he'll grow out of it.
she said you do like him i said ok im going to the banquet with him its like prom but with no dancing but you get really dressed up ,and at the end of it i will know if i love as a friend or as a boyfriend she said ok.
I went to the dinner i was very nervous we didnt talk that much but james said i looked really pretty that didnt mean anything though everbody said that and other guys said that . while i was there i forgot about what i had told my allison.
I was wondering did the guy like me for love or lust?
I was very scared to eat in front of james cause i liked him i know weird right?but when we ate i had no problem i was wondering what happened i could never eat in front of him before
is it lust or love
A different friend of mine samantha went to the dinner to with her guyfriend me and her had a que to pull up my dress cause it kept falling way down and u could see everything she would either say i love pineapples or dont you love red roses then i would turn around and pull my dress up.
luke the perve was sitting by us he kept staring at me and STARING STARING down my dress and siad something to james then luke left for a couple minutes samantha said what was luke talking about? glory james said yah hes being a pervert and before luke was staring at my but an telling james is she wearing thongs and was about to ask me james said no man dont ask her that! then look said no wonder why your dating her and hit me in the but with a drumstick not chicken to play the drums wuth drumstick.
Luke is such a perve he was liking me for lust
but back to the dinner
after we went to starbucks
still not much talking
on the way home we started talking for once i could look him in the eyes
we were talking about batman and all the harry potter movies and books mostly harry potter
i actually had a conversation with him face to face without my face turning all red and blushing
when i got home i realized i liked him when i saw his looks up close he wasnt as cute as he was far away
then i realized also when i started liking him i didnt just like him how it is with normallove
i made myself like him
because i had liked luke for years and luke never talked to me so i got sick of it but i couldnt stop liking luke
finally i did and i liked james
but through it all was it love or lust
it was lust when i started talkinf face to face with him and he wasnt cute
i stopped liking him i was never in love with him
love is a very strong word but i never knew it 1 day i will though
i kinda started liking luke again i said i would tottaly like him and he would be so perfect if he had a good attitude and wasny a perve.
but then i realized girl dont settle for second best as my priciple always says and your probably thinking right now you dont always get number 1 and dont always get what you want but as my priciple says if you get a b's or c's on your report card dont just think o thats good dont settle for second best just keep trying until you get to first.
So im not going to like a guy just because or theres no one else to like and im not going for second best even if he is the hottest guy ever if u stay with second best and get married for lust youll nerver be married for love but for lust , yah itll be great at first but after a while itll get old and youll get older and get grey hair and not look so great then you will nerver be happy because u married for lust but if you wait for the one to come no matter how long and get married for love not lust u will stay together forever and will always love eachother even when u get lod and are not as pretty as when u married u will still always love and not focess on lookes but love and will always be happy.
What im going to do is waut for the right man to come ill think hes perfect in every way and will love him forever so im not settling for second best im waiting for #1
so what do i think of james?
i think well be very very good friends
what do you think?